ED TRIGGER WARNING
I haven’t been exactly fabulous of late - I left school, started new meds and sorting out the transition from my CAMHS team to adult services has been really difficult; I really trust my psychologist and she’s one of the kindest, least judgemental people I’ve ever met. I filled out paper work, questionnaires, mood and body image 1-10 scales (why anyone thought that was a useful system I’ll never know).
Anyway, after all that, they got a phone call from the new centre saying that I wouldn’t be suited in their care and now instead I’m transferring to an eating disorder clinic for working towards a ‘recovery’ programme because apparently I’m ‘physically compromised’.
All of this stress, knowing not-knowing, has made me go to downhill fast, scarily fast. So I haven’t the energy or the drive or brain function to tumble.
I’m sorry - this will pass.